I won't allow my unconscious stop my dreams

I need to stop waking up so late when I have interview to go to. Starting today I'll be going to bed at 12:00 a.m. SHARP. And once I do that I will stet my alarm clocks on. I need to stop doing this to myself.

It's 1:39 am

I've just realized I have a really bad temper and I need to get a hold of myself before I get myself into trouble one of these days. Here are some short term goals I will be working on that will help improve my life - 1. Get a job 2. Work on temper. When you get mad just express your frustration but NEVER ACT OUT such frustrations. I really need to work on this!!! 3. Buy an IPad. Long Term Goals: 1. Launch 2. Loft 3. Travel to China

What's Love?

I'm starting my new job on the 19th. I will stick to this and take it day by day.

I need to grow up

The next job I get I will not be quitting. I will take the position day by day and work through any problems that I have. I can't run anymore. I need to grow up. This is the first step for me.

I need to grow up

So I just asked this online question about how I can stick through this new position. And she said, "...whatever it is you're running from handle it now." This is what's wrong with me and will be fixed. I am running from growing up and becoming an adult. I know I've had a fucked up childhood but I will not allow that to impede upon me and my bright future. I WILL stick through this position for at least six months. Tomorrow morning I'm going to wake up refreshed, ready, and DETERMINED to make it. I WILL not under any circumstance QUIT this job. NO!

PROMISE TO MYSELF

I'm starting a new position at a call center. I will definitely LAST at this position. I need to prove it to myself that I can stick something out. I WILL follow through with this job. I WILL go to work, keep my nose clean, and before you know it LAUNCH!!! This is something I'm doing for myself and I will prove to my dad that I am NOT a FUCK UP.

FUCKING MORON

Today I had a semi argument with father about skipping looking for a job and instead go full time on the youtube tutorials. he's a fucking a moron it's unbelievable. he has no fucking idea the reality of the situation. how the fuck does he think money is going to be made through youtube videos in just a fucking day? can this fucking moron pay the fucking rent? i'm just so pissed at his stupidness. it shows me he's out of touch with fucking reality and how i'm going to build my fucking business. HOW THE FUCK DOES HE THINK MICHELLE PHAN AND THOSE OTHER FUCKING BITCHES MADE IT? THEY DIDN'T MAKE THEIR FUCKING MONEY BY USING DIME STORE PRODUCTS AND A GHETTO COMPUTER CAMERA. HE'S A FUCKING IDIOT,